I am struggling. More on the psychological side because I feel so low. I am trying very hard not to throw away cell phone batteries out of frustration. I hate what I am feeling and I don’t know what to do. When I look at my badly bruised legs I lose hope. And when I cannot lift my leg I feel that my world crashes. The husband already want me to go to the ER. Because as of this moment I have colds and coughs. I know this is a bad sign. I am just thankful that tomorrow we will be going to the clinic and I am meeting my doctor already. Come what may. I hope god will not make me undergo a knee surgery.