I don’t know how I am going for a check up without having the little girl skip classes. I do not like to leave her but I am sure she’ll missed class if she’ll accompany to the clinic. But if we go early we might be able to go back before her class. Oh well, I don’t know. Depends on the weather also. I am bit apprehensive to go out when its so wet outside. I am scared that I might slip again and break a bone. hahaha. Just today, on our way home, it rain heavily. I really asked the driver of the school bus to escort me while walking. lol. Good thing he willingly obliged because he knows what I have been through. I do hope there would be a little bit sun tomorrow so that I do some grocery shopping to stock up and buy my california maki. hahaha.
I am glad that I am back to my regular routine. With the little girl going to school, I am more active. For now until July I planned to be in there school for the three hours of their class. But after that I would just let her be fetched by her school bus. Now, I am currently looking for birthday party ideas and giveaways. I am thinking to give some sugar free gift baskets for the adults who will attend her 5th birthday. Really right now I don’t have any idea what I want. I have to consider the short vacation of the husband, the weather, and our budget. The husband and I are discussing what is the best option for our family and friends. Well, let see.
I have been receiving a lot of comments that I have drop a lot of weight. I just smile in return because I really don’t believe it. And I guess for me it’s just a small amount. But what really make me believe that I shed off some pounds was when the husband send me a message that he was not able to recognized at first glance in one of the pictures that were posted in FB. haha. I told him he might have mistaken me for some other person but he was adamant and said that he recognizes my shirt. It was the shirt that I always wear when we were in Kuwait. haha. So now I know I have shed those excess fluids. I am on low dose prednisone and I think that’s the reason. So, now I am praying that the dose will stay that way.
Last Saturday we went to Pampanga, the province where I grew up. We have a house there but since the three of us are all in Marikina, we rarely go there. This time we went there to pay our last respect to our uncle. My uncle is a jack of all trade sort of person. He likes to do some repair and tinker digital tuner. He died because he has some lung problems and he is quite hard headed because he consumed two bottles of Red Horse despite being cautioned that it’s bad for his health. I know that this is also the moment to meet some faces from my past, my childhood. And I am not surprised that some were not able to recognized because I really doubled up my weight. For them, they still see me as the skinny teenager. There are times when I just smile that I have grown big but for some who care enough to show concern I tell them it’s the effect of my life long disease. I was really happy to see the daughter of my uncle. She was able to spot me readily and have approached me. And she even reintroduced herself since she saw how puzzled I am when she came to talk to me. Oh yeah, my past has somehow been diminished by lupus.
Our little girl is turning five years old next month and the husband and I don’t deny the fact that we still want to have additions to our family of three. Unfortunate that addition won’t come any sooner because I just had my period. And I am a bit disappointed but I know despite the fact that we are unsuccesful this time to conceived, God has plans for us. In truth, I am also scared if ever I get pregnant again. This time the risk is bigger because of the different complications that I have suffered through the years. When I had Anevay, despite LUPUS, I still can say I am strong and healthy. But now it’s a bit different. The husband and I agrees that we can try and try and whatever is the outcome we will be happy and let God do the planning for us.