The stiffness of my knee is not gone yet. As I walk I can feel the muscles stretching. It makes me think if there is a problem with my operation. But I guess I only lack practice. Sometimes I am afraid of the pain. Before I have a strong threshold for it but after the accident I got a fear of feeling the pain. So, I avoid anything tedious and stressful activities. I know if I keep on doing this, my muscle condition won’t improved. No, I’m not aiming to have sport trophies but I want to achieve a level of fluidness in my action. That’s why even if I am so lazy I keep on brainwashing myself that I need to exercise. I need to put some minutes in the treadmill. Not because I need to lose weight but because I need to move those bones to fight off osteoporosis.

Now I am back to eating fish and vegetables. Ever since I had my accident, I always end up eating pork and chicken and sometimes beef. Because that’s what the kids like and what my sister in law prepares. I really missed eating only fish and veggies. Even my sister misses those time that I cooked different meals that does not include pork. She even asked me to cook a certain meal when she saw that I can function in the kitchen. haha. And since it’s Holy week it was just right that we avoid meat. Although I know I am exempted because I belong to the ‘sick’ category. But I am trying my best to do some fasting for the Holy Week. Tomorrow, I hope the weather cooperate and it won’t be really hot because we will be out the whole morning for Visita Iglesia.

I had a nice chat with a former officemate last night. We talked about how life is treating us. And how challenging really is our situation. He is like my husband, working outside the country because the salary is way bigger plus the compensation is better. But unlike the husband, education and health for his family is not covered. So he was asking me for references. I told him he might want to look at NC Blue Cross Blue Shield and it might fit his requirements. Then we went on discussing about insurance and loans. Like us he also have been paying for the house and lot he have acquired. We end up laughing about our situation. But I told him that we should be thankful despite the sacrifices because not everyone has this kind of chance. And we have debts and loans to pay but at least we have money to pay them, right?

Finally I was able to visit my lupus doctor after three months. But before that I called up for the home service laboratory test and unfortunately my nerves did not cooperate. I was prick three times before they got the blood samples. And the blood did not flow easily. The syringe has to be moved to get the blood out. The laboratory test showed infection in my urine (pus cells) and I know my doctor will not be happy.

Ever since I became a mom, I always read articles about child rearing. Not only on how to take care of toddlers but also of teenagers. I know I have still a lot of years ahead of me to be a mother to a teenager but I cannot help but be interested in everything that concerns taking care of your kids. As early as now, I would read about teen drug abuse facts because it’s one of the challenges that some parents have to deal with. I know I am a bit paranoid when it comes to drug addiction but I cannot help myself because I have seen a childhood friend’s life get ruined by illegal drugs.