During my stay in the hospital, my lupus doctor came to check on me. At first he was asking me what happen and then asked me if I could walk already. I told him no. That was when he got all fired up and scolded me. According to him, I should have taken that three weeks to start walking. Now, I lost the chance and my legs are slowly getting weak. So, he said I have to start rehab as soon as possible. And this would prolong my stay in the hospital. When he told me that it seems that my hopes were shattered. A glass tile was broken. You see, I was hoping for good news but none came. Rather, I was scolded for not fighting the pain. I was ready to give up when the ortho doctor came and we discussed the possibiliies. It was then that I begged that i really wanted to go home and if possible would do the rehab somewhere in Marikina. Close to home, close to my daughter. Glad both doctors said yes. Actually, in the end, I realized that my lupus doctor was just teasing me. And he just scared me so that I would have to fight and walk. In his next visit he was laughing at me and what would you that night I was able to stand for three times. haha. Yes, I am scared. And yes, I need that urging that my doctor has given me. Thank you Lord for a good doctor and a good brother who is always there for me. Amen.

I told myself that I need to work today. I had a lot of backlog because I stayed in the hospital for three days without any internet connection. But unfortunately I got sidetracked downloading the photos from the account of the little one’s teacher in Facebook. haha. There are some pictures of me as well and while looking at them, I cannot help but cringed. I really need to used even those weight loss cream because I really am that big. Well, it’s because of water retention. Thank God, Dr. I have already reduced my medrol dose. Fortunately, the rehab that I will undergo will also help me lose weight and put things in perspective. I am in such a deep hole right now. I don’t know what to do. But I know one thing. I wanted to be out of this immobilizer soon.

My little girl loves to play coins. So, we adults are always on alert when she is playing with them because she might be tempted to swallow them. You know how toddlers are. But as an adult we too should be tempted and take a plunge when it comes to gold coin because they really are good investments. You see, if someone gives you the opportunity to buy one, take it, because in the future you will definitely gain something from it. And if you are one of those who wanted one you can have it delivered to you through the United States Gold Bureau. The website has gold and silver that you can use for investment.s

I thought my love affair with the emergency room is over. I was wrong. This time I have another one to accompany me the ambulance. I was feeling well last Tuesday. In fact I was able to sit and wash my hair. Do everything in the bed. And then the husband and I chatted for a while. Then around midnight, I woke up in so much pain. My left leg ( the one that was not operated) is giving me a hard time to sleep. I called my brother. He gave me pain reliever, massage my leg, and after an hour the pain was gone. We were able to dozed off to sleep. But dawn came, the pain started again. This time I was already crying because I really can’t take it anymore. Around morning, my sister in law suggested we already go to the hospital. She was able to got hold of an ambulance. And we were off to UST. During the ride, I was not feeling well, that I throw up. It does not help that the stretcher has no cover ( no, I am not talking about hot tub covers) and it was really incovenient because I was sweating heavily. And to top it all, since the ambulance is from Marikina they are not familiar with the routes. haha. We were lost! Urgh! Funny. My brother was half laughing and half annoyed. Because I am really asking him from time to time if we are already there. Thank God we have reached our destination. And what’s funny when we arrived..I was feeling all better.

I think I ate a lot today. And I am going to eat some more. Haha. It was my niece birthday yesterday and my sister in law preferred to have the celebration today. She’s cooking spaghetti and we have some cake and ice cream too! My niece is happy! And I’m happy too because I help in making her happy. I Love our setup now. And I am looking forward to next week because I hope to be free of the immobilezer or if not I hope I can now stand up and walk. Even just a little bit. So that it would be less work for me and for my loved ones.