I have two weeks before my scheduled check up. I wanted to make sure that my next check up will yield positive results so I would like to work hard. I want to see a lower blood pressure and a clear urinalysis. I am doing it one step at a time. I would reduce my rice intake, concentrate on eating fruits and vegetables and I am just drinking water and buko juice. Nothing more and nothing less. I am excited to see the results. Along with this comes my prayer that somehow my LUPUS will start responding to medicine and would be able to have a merry christmas in Kuwait.

With my ever increasing expenses for my medicine I am looking for ways to increase my source of funds. I am working doubly hard because I don’t want to put everything on my husband’s shoulders. Hopefully by next week or a week after next, the expected funds to settle some of our bills will come already. Right now I am wishing I have a gold bar and have it trade so that I can generate more funds for my medicine. But as I say time will come. For now I just am contend reading through usgoldbureau.com and learning about the gold market. Hoping that in the future, I can be successful in exploring the gold.

Before I try to avoid this kind of bread because I really can’t take the color. But everything changes now. My motto is ‘Loving the things I hate, and hating the things I love’. hahaha. This applies to the foods I eat. As I said I really don’t like wheat bread but now that I know of its benefit I tried buying one. And well, it isn’t bad as I have predicted. In fact when I eat it, I feel full already even if it’s just a one bread. So, there goes my motto. hahaha. At least I can still eat bread, right ?

I wonder if I should asked some loose diamonds from the husband as a gift if I would be successful in my determination to loss weight. Well, let see but for now I don’t care about rewards or gifts. What I care the most is that through this weight loss goal I have I would be healthier. That after six months I have to kiss cellcept good bye and we can free myself from Medrol. I know right now it’s still far fetched but let’s do it one step at a time. Tomorrow, I hope I can do some exercise and sweat it out. I also missed my portable sauna. Although I am sweating every day by doing house hold chores. And one last thing I want is to be able to sleep straight. And I plan to do that tonight. Wish me luck! Sometimes the lure of $$$ makes me wide awake in the wee hours of the morning.

What I am doing now is something new to me. I really am having time to discipline myself when it comes to my eating habits. But I have to do it. More so, my meal is now tasteless because I am ordered to have a no salt diet. It’s hard but I know I will get used to it. I am trying to convert everything I used in the kitchen into something healthy and researching can sometime be confusing and can dampen your spirit.