Not sure how I am going to manage this day. I planned on going to my doctor and to make sure I can come back in time for my little one’s school dismissal I always ride the train. Unfortunately since yesterday my left foot is hurting. I don’t know what really happen but when I went up the school bus, it started to hurt and it made me want to cry. The ache is so bad that I need to bit my tongue so tears won’t fall. In the afternoon, I decided to have a massage but it did nothing much. And then we got soaked in the rain. I hope the foot will get better. I need to walk properly today.

If  it’s only possible, I would have hide and never visit my doctor for a while. I am quite scared of what he is going to say. Based on my ultrasound ( I have not read the result yet) I feel like I am facing doom. I am already preparing myself for the possibility of being under the knife again. So I am straightening out our finances. I wish I have gold coins right now which I can used just in case I run out of funds. I know they would be a big help to me especially if I need some big funds to settle everyting that would be done to correct my situation. But I am still hoping and praying that I won’t have to endure any operation again. I am quite scared. I don’t know what I am going to face. Later today, I am going to visit my doctor and it’s the moment of truth for me.