I am in a tough situation right now. We are already considering the possibility of a kidney biopsy and oral chemotherapy. Although I am keeping my fingers crossed that my body would respond to the high dose prednisone being given to me and the buko juice that I kept on drinking. Hopefully the protein leak would stop already. Based on my discussion with my doctor, the random urinalysis and creatinine would determine if we would be going for chemo already. I am quite scared on this because one, I don’t like to be put on the table again. I am scared of a possible blood clot. Then chemo would weaken me. Who would take care of the little girl and house? Oh man, I am really fervently praying that I can bail myself out of this. God help me.

Right now in my good condition..that’s physically. Internally, that’s a big question. We still cannot figure out a lot of things regarding my lupus. I have to undergo a series of laboratory test this week before I show up on the clinic of my doctor. If only I have no lupus, I wanted to try a lot of things. Different things that are basically going to help me out as a mom and a housewife. Actually, I wanted to learn about dress making. I wanted to create dresses for my little girl just like what my mother did for me. And it won’t hurt if I learn a thing or two about cosmetology. It would really be nice if I can enroll myself to a beauty school just like Jacksonville Cosmetology School but unfortunately with a limited time I just can’t. It would always be an advantage to be learning from experts. So that you can be an expert as well!