It’s a holiday here in our country but despite that we were early to wake up again. This time, after two days of being a nervous wreck I could not help but smile at the sight of a more active Anevay. She woke up feeling hungry so I asked her what she wanted to eat. She asked for kokocrunch so I let her eat it just to gain appetite. I was so happy to see her eating again by herself. But I felt so weak right now. Maybe, it’s the result of not being able to eat and sleep properly. I am just thankful that I have my older brother sleep over for two nights in our house. He was helping me all through out. Until now, he went to the market to buy us some food. I am planning on cooking some soup for the little girl. Sinigang sa miso which is her favorite.

I wanted to have a one day off from all the house chores. I feel so tired that my face sometimes felt numb. My whole body is aching and I am wishing right now that I have those orthopedic seat cushion which are really comfortable. There are just days when I wish I could lay down and stretch my back. That is my idea of pure heaven after a tiring day. Because there are times that after doing all the house work (even just the simplest one) I would really ache all over. That is what LUPUS is doing to my body. But sometimes aside from the ache there are other things. Like right now I have pain in the area where I had my CS operation. I am thinking to used the abdominal binder that I had since my operation. Sometimes things like this fixes everything. But sometimes it does not. And that is what I am scared about. I don’t want a bad flare leading to hospitalization. Oh well!

Sometimes I tend to forgot that I am a woman with a disease. Because I am a mom, I need to do everything. With LUPUS, I am always reminded that I cannot do all things. That I am not superhuman and I needed to rest from time to time. But what if your child get sick, do you have the right to rest? This weekend has been quite a stressful one for me. And we all know that STRESS is the leading factor to a LUPUS FLARE. I am praying hard that I won’t get sick. That the stress would go away and leave me. That I can get that much needed sleep and rest.

There are things that are bugging me right now. Well, I am trying very hard not to think much about them right now because I know I am in no condition to think straight because of all the stressed and worries that I was subjected to this weekend. But unfortunately there are some stuff that even I pretend to ignore they kept on coming back. Just like my health. Right now I am having an upset stomach. I also feel some pain in the area that was stitched because of my CS operation. And then of course because I am tired and have been lacking sleep, my hands and feet goes numb. I am also having shortness of breathing. As usual, I tried to look into the internet for some ways to help me out of the situation. I found out that oral chelation can help me. When I discovered the cardiorenew.com website that talks about the chelation therapy, I grew interested that I explored the website. I was quite taken by the articles. Now, I am thinking of trying it. As they always say there’s no harm in trying, right? Who knows this is one of the instrument for me to be able to regain my health.

1. MacGyver ::Saturday night
2. Garter ::shorts
3. Wedge ::shoes
4. Inches ::ruler
5. Code ::name
6. Water ::running
7. Running ::shoes
8. Curly ::hair
9. Turkey ::thanksgiving
10. Stupor ::daze

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