badly. I am thinking if it’s lack of calcium again. I just hope it go away soon! Today, I woke up with stiff muscles. I woke up on the wrong side of the bed and so my day was ruined. I planned on cleaning our living room but decided against it and gave in to the temptation to just lay down in bed until the little girl is home from school.

How many people out there who are suffering from different disease have enough funding to make sure they got the right medicine to treat their sickness. Yesterday there were some news about the cheap medical bill that some legislator would like to passed. But unfortunately, the bill was rejected and there was a rumor that the government somehow was behind the rejection because they have made some agreement with different pharmaceutical companies. It was disheartening especially when the report gave a break down of the reason why the medicines here in our country are being sold at such a high price. Imagine, 50% of the cost goes to advertisements of the medicine. Oh well!

Over the past couple of days I have been experiencing extreme joint pains and edema. The joint pains makes it harder for me to raise up from bed, sit and stand, even to pee is such a hard task to go by. And then the edema in my hand made me hurt when I try to put in some weight (like carrying a pitcher of water) and there are also bruises in my hand that when I clasped something it’s really is painful. This are just but few things I have to live by everyday because of my lupus.

Next week I’ll be visiting my rheumatologist for a check up. The husband has been bugging me non stop to go and I am too lazy right now to even got some lab test on me. But I know I have to see my doctor. I also planned to asked him if I could take some supplement that might help me with my joint pains and also if it’s okay that I take some weight loss supplement. He has been telling me to lose weight because he is afraid I might develop some complication on my heart if I don’t look out on my weight. It’s really one of the tough challenges I have to face now but I am willing to fight. As the husband told me, that’s the way to do it. Motivate myself and fight lupus. It’s easier said that done but for him and our little girl I am willing to put my best foot forward against lupus.